The day is finally here

Posted on August 4, 2010. Filed under: Me, Myself, and I | Tags: Arizona, daughter, divorce, feelings, heartbreak, kindergarten, life, love, me, relief, shared custody |

To my little princess.

Your mommy has been looking forward to tomorrow for 3 long years. I can’t even begin to explain the feelings of happiness, contentment, and relief that I am feeling.

For the past 3 years your mommy has had to learn how to be away from you for 2 weeks at a time. To not be a part of every minute of your life. It has been hard. So hard. I have missed you from the moment you said good-bye on the airplane to the minute you landed back in my arms. I have had to learn to let so much go. There have been times when it has just been too much. But I have had to be strong for you. I have had to protect you and your innocence. I have done the best that I could. Sometimes I have not been able to protect you from others and for that I am sorry but we will work through that together and someday it will all be a memory.

But tomorrow is the day my world becomes right again. I no longer will have to go 2 weeks without you. We no longer will have to have that crazy back and forth life. We will have a more normal schedule. You will have settled life. No more 2 schools & 2 schedules, no more flying 2 weekends a month, no more disruptions.

I have waited and dreamed of this day for so long…it is what has kept me going when things have gotten bad. I have heard it in your voice on the phone as you count down the days till you come home. The countdown is over sweetie.

So much has changed in the last 3 years. I am amazed at how you have grown and what an amazing little girl you are. You are so resilient and going to continue to grow into such a wonderful person.

It is now just not you and I, we have TB. We are rebuilding our family. We have made a fresh start at life in AZ and already have made good friends and are building our community. You are starting Kindergarten. It is going to be an amazing year.

I love you with all of my heart little one and tomorrow is going to be one of the happiest days of my life.

p.s. your doggies are ready for snuggles too. The books are from me and the Camelback and hiking socks are from best buddy. “You must always be hydrated in the desert”